The Circle that Held

The vibrancy of some moments grows with time, and time itself reveals the depth of richness held within the heart of a mystery.

I didn’t know that on a June morning, watching horses from my kitchen window, I was standing on the edge of one.

Most summers, June is when we put a select group of mares with a stallion so that the following May, there will be a new group of foals. This herd had been together for about a week and had settled with little trouble.

Except for this morning.

Sipping my coffee, I watched an odd scene unfold before me.

One mare rested beside a sandstone-coloured rock, while the others encircled her like sentries, standing guard against any disruption.

The disruption they were shielding her from was Diamond, our herd sire.

Experienced and gentle with his mares, Diamond often got along with his herd. But this morning, something had shifted. Every time he attempted to enter the circle, the mares pinned back their ears as if to say—

Don’t even try.

Diamond read their energy and retreated, only to try again from another place.

Every attempt was thwarted.

The mares held their ground.

I looked back at the rock and saw a flash of movement.

Just a flicker.

Like the swish of a tail.

The rock was not a rock at all.

It was a newborn foal.

One of our mares had given birth in the night, and the others had formed a protective circle around mother and baby. The new mother rested inside that haven, fully trusting the mares to keep her and her foal safe.

And they did not fail her.

I went out to check on them. Both mare and foal were doing well. In time, we introduced Diamond to his son—a golden colt we named Duke.

As Duke grew, he became fast friends with his father and eventually followed in his footsteps, becoming the sire of many horses on our ranch.

Years passed. Duke’s sons and daughters became a significant part of our herd.

These horses carry a gentle quality of heart.

A kind attentiveness.

A willingness to draw near.

It is not uncommon to walk out into the pasture and have a few fall quietly into step beside me.

But one day, I experienced the full depth of what they carry.

It was a particularly hard season. Much around me was unraveling, and I was helpless to stop it. The shifts and changes felt less like transitions and more like ruptures—fractures moving through the landscape of the ranch and through my own story. Life would not look the same on the other side, and I could not yet see what that place held.

The pain I carried that day was deeper than words. So I went out to the horse pasture, leaned against a fence post, and let myself cry.

The tears came freely.

Then I felt a nudge at my elbow.

I looked up.

The horses—many of them direct descendants of Duke—had formed two quiet semicircles around me. They stood still, heads lowered toward the ground, holding space for my overwhelm without asking anything of me.

For a long while, I stayed inside that circle and simply received.

When I finally stood and moved away from the fence, the horses formed one large circle around me. Slowly, they walked with me—a moving fortress—as I returned to my story.

My reality.

But in that interlude, I felt protected.

Sheltered.

Not alone.

That day, I understood something of what Duke and his mother must have known the morning he was born.

The fierce, quiet strength that had encircled him at his birth had been carried forward into his offspring—horses unafraid to hold space for one who needed room to be messy.

To not have it together.

To grieve.

On a hard afternoon in a back pasture, that strength was offered to me.

I often think about what I need to provide for our horses so they can live well.

Safe pasture.

Good feed.

Training.

Care.

Love.

But that day, they gave me a gift I hadn’t known I needed.

A gift of presence.

They didn’t solve my problem. They couldn’t fix what was broken. They offered no solutions and asked no questions.

They simply encircled me.

Reading the language of my tears, they gave me the haven of their presence.

A quiet strength more resilient than words.

I often think of that day.

It still resides deep within me, in a place beyond full expression.

But I know I left that field different than when I entered it.

Stronger, somehow.

Not because anything had changed, but because I had been surrounded by a quiet strength that held space for me in my mess and my pain.

And somehow, that was enough.

In the end, their strength helped me believe I could take—

one more step.

And that was all I needed.